Why I Am Gay

My mother and father used to argue and fight a lot, so one day he left us.

My mother got so caught up chasing after

no good,

no account negroes

that she completely forgot about me.

I grew up really wanting her love,

wanting her to love me.

I never got it.

I remember it started long before freeze-tag. I always like to  put on

my mothers shoes.

You remember the Road Runner Show, the one with Wile. E. Coyote–

well that’s all I was thinking about.

I wasn’t even thinking about “hide-n-go-get-it”,

when these so-called men started touching on me.

The whole time they were doing these things to me they were telling

me that it was love,

that it was right.

“If you don’t do it, I’m ah tell your mother.”

I learned and was told shit that I shouldn’t have known or done until

I was grown.

I tried to tell some family members, but they didn’t want to talk about it.

It was like I deserved it,

like I asked for it.

So I grew up afraid.

I hit puberty and my feelings of love for my mother turned sexual.

And all of a sudden

I was attracted to her,

her,

and her,

but anger is what made me perpetuate it.

Somewhere along the line a part of me liked the feelings the sex brought.

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Recently President Barack Obama evolved, or changed course on same-sex marriage., by now saying he supports gay marriage, but stresses that it is a personal position. This puts him in stark opposition to presumptive GOP nominee Mitt Romney who has firmly pledged his opposition to gay marriage. We won’t get into the rights and wrong of the issue or the possible financial and political motivations behind it. Was the president wrong to suggest that his daughter’s friends gay parents helped him see clearer? Was he wrong to come out in support of gay marriage, but not offer what he would do to move that forward? Is he setting the tone for the black community? Homosexuals are no longer a minority, while those that identify as gay may be. Besides most of these questions have been address by It Ain’t Just the Size.

Michael Eric Dyson has called those opposed to same-sex marriage as “Sexual Rednecks”, he also called religious zealotry as bigotry. Meanwhile pastor Jamal Bryant, CNN’s Roland Martin, and Sophia Nelson have taken to the airwaves to oppose the presidents “evolution” on gay marriage. Although Barack Obama is black he can’t be seen too closely associated with black issues. He has pledged support for women, military, Israel, gays, afghans and immigrants, but never support directly for blacks. Why?

The truth is that while mass marketed black cultural products are the rage in America, black people, especially descendants of slaves, just aren’t that popular. Well, not popular enough to warrant support or action from the president regarding a defacto 2nd class citizenship, mass incarcerations aimed at inner-cities and huge unemployment rates. Barack Obama has done and said much for “interest” groups, but he’s done nothing for blacks, unless you count him telling blacks to “get over it” and “stop whining.” What would happen if Barack Obama said to gays “quit crying and complaining”? I know people will say the president’s “administration” has programs that help blacks, or there are black gays and black immigrants. While this is true. It is also true that President Barack Obama appears afraid to address blacks and black issues in public.

I find it curious that after Barack’s personal “evolution” on gay-marriage, he went to Hollywood to a $40,000-a-plate fundraiser, which netted him 15 million dollars for his campaign. I have yet to see him in inner-cities of Los Angeles, New York or Chicago, isn’t he the president of the poor and down-trodden as well as the rich and influential? Isn’t he the President of all people and not just special interest. Some have suggested that black opposition to same-sex marriage is a religious one, it is not. While we are talking about black pain, gay inconvenience or the 1st Gay President… how did the black community become so entangled with gay rights? Some have suggested that President Obama is waiting until his 2nd term to really let the “Black” out. I don’t know what that means, but I do know that black people have always been told to be patient and wait, while other groups have gotten ahead. What I also know is that simply putting a black face on it won’t be good enough the second time around.

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Hopefully by now you have all heard the President’s call to repeal the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” Policy. This is a policy was enacted 1993, and since then a number of gay men and women have been kicked out of the military because of their sexual orientation. Sen. John McCain is one of DADT biggest supporters. After President Obama asked for the repeal of DADT, Sen. McCain said that he would be for the repeal if the Military Leadership was also for it. Senator McCain, has frequently stated that his staunch opposition to allowing openly gay men and women in the armed forces is based on a recommendation by General Colin Powell in 1993. This week General Colin Powell said, “DADT should repealed”. Followed by our nations two top Military leaders Admiral Mike Mullen chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff and Defense Secretary Robert M. Gates who both stated that they backed a repeal of this policy.

John McCain– “I am disappointed in the testimony.”

MG– Okay how about Wednesday when more than 100 retired generals and admirals called for repeal of this policy.

JM– “Why repeal it, I think the policy has been effective.”

MG– Hmmmm. Senator this sounds a little shady. You agree that I have complied a pretty impressive list of Military Officials that back the repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell?

JM– “There has to be a determination from our military leaders that they think it is a good idea to change the policy; then, of course, I will listen to them.”

MG– Then you will Listen, wait a minute that is not what you said in 2006. Play the tape! [MG plays tape of John McCain circa 2006, “The day that all the leadership of the military comes to me and says, ‘Senator, we ought to change the policy,’ then I think we ought to consider seriously changing it.”

MG– And?

JM– And what?  

MG– And they are coming to you.  

JM– Not All of them.

MG– What do you mean?  

JM– Yes, to the untrained professional your list of names would seem impressive. However, upon further examination there are some very important and high ranking names are missing from your list.  

MG– Like who?  

JM– I happen to have another list [unfolds some paper]. Now, let me know once these military leaders have reversed their stance on Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell. [clears throat, Begins listing names]

Col. Sherman Potter

Lt. Col. Andy Tanner

Capt. Jonas Grumby

Lt. Cmdr. Worf

Col. Nathan R. Jessep 

Col. Robert Hogan

Cmdr. Adama

Col. Sanders

Lt. Uhura

Lt. Cmdr. Data

Gen. Grievous

Capt. Hook

Sgt. Slaughter

Capt. Morgan

Capt. Jack Sparrow

Capt. Crunch

Capt. Kangaroo

Capt. Kirk

Capt. Stubing

Capt. America

And then I will listen.

 

Regardless of McCain’s opposition and the opposition of many others the House voted to allow the Senate Arms Committee to repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell. Democrats and Republicans alike are playing politics on this this issue in order to serve their election needs. The republicans say that military rules are unique and are not to be tied to social issues. The democrats support this repeal move but only to advance their agenda. However, the Senate Arms Committee is now waffeling on how much of the act to repeal.

November 2010 The Pentagon released a DADT military survey:

“the results of a survey sent to troops this summer and cited in the report, 69 percent of respondents said they had served with someone in their unit who they believed to be gay or lesbian. Of those who did, 92 percent stated that their unit’s ability to work together was very good, good, or neither good nor poor, according to the report.”

December 15 , 2010

The House voted for the second time this year to repeal Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell

225-177


On December 17th 2010

In a stunning turn of events the U.S. Congress in a “lame duck session” voted to repeal Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell ending a 17 year old ban on homosexuals in the military. Apparently even the fictional military leaders have agree that the policy was wrong. This changing of the law begins the process of ending discrimination. Yes the commanders on the military branches are still not on board with repeal, as we all know Change has it’s enemies. I just wonder if those that opposed DADT’s repeal will apologize, what do you think?